4
May

living-inside-of-books:

Faking It (Losing It #2) by Cora Carmack

"My name is Cade Winston. MFA student, volunteer, mom-hugger, and your boyfriend for the next twenty-four hours. It’s nice to meet you." (Cade)
"Max Miller- musician and raging bitch. I’m sorry for slapping you." (Max)

"That was the moment I knew for sure that I hadn’t been in love with Bliss. I couldn’t have been. Because at that moment nothing could have stopped me from going to Max, not even if Bliss had been on the other side calling me, too." (Cade)

“I’ll remind you every day how amazing it feels when your body touches mine. I’ll remind you of the good times, and help you forget the bad. I’ll remind you who you are when life has beaten you down and made you doubt it. I’ll bust down your door in the middle of the night and kiss you until you remember that your fears are just that, and they can’t control you. I’ll take my chances against your fickle heart if it means it’s mine.” (Cade)

“I think everyone does. Even happy people. They may not admit it to anyone, but I think they feel it. I think they close their eyes, or go for a run, or take a long shower, so that hey can forget just for a second who they are and what they have to do day in and day out. Living is hard. And every day our feet get heavier and we pick up more baggage. So, we stop and take a breath, close our eyes, reset our minds. It’s natural. As lond as you open your eyes and keep going.” (Cade)

“But fear lets us know we’re alive. It tells me that you care about what happens between us because the mind doesn’t waste time being scared about things that don’t matter.” (Cade)

“We should live like we smoke— inhale the present and exhale the past.” (Max)

"With his forehead pressed against mine, the sight of him filled up my vision. There was nothing else in that moment, but him. And he … he reminded me of music. Of the way singing made me feel. Like I was falling and flying, freedom and fear." (Max)

“Even the good things from our pasts still only belonged in the past” (Cade)

“I never dated a girl like her, and she’s probably never dated a guy like me. But sometimes you don’t know what you’re looking for until it’s already knocked you flat on your back. And what was the point in living if I was only going to travel the same roads again and again?” (Cade)

"Pain changes us. Mine made me want to be perfect, so that no one would ever want to leave me again.” (Cade)
“Yours made you Golden. Mine just made me angry.” (Max)
“Your pain made you strong. It made you passionate and alive. It made us both who we are.” (Cade)

“No matter how close, you are always too far
My eyes are drawn everywhere you are.
I’m tired of the way we both pretend Tired of always wanting and never giving in
I can feel it in my skin, see it in your grin
We’re more. We always have been.
Think of everything we’ve missed.
Every touch and every kiss.
Because we both insist.
Resist.
Hold your breath and close your eyes Distract yourself with other guys
It’s no surprise, your defeated sighs
Aren’t you tired of the lies?
Think of everything we’ve missed.
Every touch and every kiss.
Because we both insist.
Resist. 
No matter how close, you are always too far
My eyes are drawn everywhere you are.
I’m done. I won’t ignore. I won’t pretend or resist.
I want more.” (Cade)

“Her eyes were a bottomless ocean that I would give up air to explore.” (Cade)

"I hated when people said that, like it assumed strength and being a male were synonymous. There was strength in being a woman." (Max)

“There are some things that are worth fighting for, no matter the outcome, and you are one of them.” (Cade)
“I’m glad you fought for me.” (Max)
"I’m glad you let me.” (Cade)

15
Nov

 

eyesbeneathasilvermask:

“No matter how close, you are always too far                                                      My eyes are drawn everywhere you are

I’m tired of the way we both pretend                                                                   Tired of always wanting and never giving in 

I can feel it in my skin,
see it in your grin
We’re more. We always have been.

Think of everything we’ve missed.
Every touch and every kiss.
Because we both insist. Resist.” 

—Cade, Faking It, Cora Carmack

5
Nov
You ever get tired of being yourself, Golden Boy?"
“Sometimes, yeah. What about you?”

“All the time.”

I asked, “Do you think everyone feels that way? Or is there something wrong with us?”
He thought for a long moment, his boots scuffing against the sidewalk as he walked. “I think everyone does. Even happy people. They may not admit it to anyone, but I think they feel it. I think they close their eyes, or go for a run, or take a long shower, so that they can forget just for a second who they are and what they have to do day in and day out. Living is hard. And every day our feet get heavier and we pick up more baggage. So, we stop and take a breath, close our eyes, reset our minds. It’s natural. As long as you open your eyes and keep going.
—  Faking It, Cora Carmack (via the-katya-fragments)